The Missing Piece

I still can’t believe that he’s gone. I miss him so much. That’s the last picture that we had together. We were bonding the whole afternoon then, he loves to go window shopping with me and we treat each other out, whoever has the money.

He was murdered last January because he’s gay. I don’t believe it though, I believe anyone could be murdered that night, regardless of their gender. Until now, the police wasn’t able to identify the murderer and I don’t know how to react. I’d like to believe that God has a special reason.

Jay,

I love you, you know that and I miss you so much. Words are not enough to tell you how thankful I am to have met you and spent time with you. I promise to be always here for your family in case they need anything. We love you.

3RD YEAR

So I was thinking of what to blog for almost a week now and I'm failing until I saw the date today, the 5th of December.


he gave this to me during our first anniversary.

Dear reader,

Do you still remember your first love? The one that made your heart skip a beat, the love that made you disobey Mom and Dad's golden rule (to not to have a boyfriend until college graduation), the love that made you stay up until midnight writing his name at the back of your Geometry notebook? I found that love and I lost it.
I am the kind of person that babble's a lot but my love life. Not everyone knows how much I love him and regret it that I lost him.


Exactly 3 years and a few days from now I met him, well not really. I didn't know that was him. I was so bored during the Regional Schools Press Conference in Ilo-ilo City that I randomly dialed phone numbers at the hotel and yeah, I dialed the number at his room, he gave his number and agreed to meet up. Unfortunately I don't have my voice that time so I pushed my friend to meet up with him and after that I was like, "How was he? Good looking? Do I have to regret that I didn't go with you?" and she was like, "Nah! He was ok but you'd probably not like him."

And that's it, end of conversation.

After the competition we went home and that's when he started texting me and I was like, "Ugh, freak!" not until I fell in-love with him.

Yes, I know reader, I'm a freak too, falling in-love with someone via text and all but I am not ashamed of it. Not a bit. I love him. He met my mom, some of my family members and my sister adore's him. I'm sorry for my self that it ended up like this
And since this post is getting longer, I don't want to talk why we broke up, It's one of my biggest mistake, I tried to find someone else, because I just wanted to experience what it is like to have "other" boyfriends. I know, I'm pathetic but hey! You don't know how hard it was when I told what I did when I can just keep it and live our lives. Maybe if I didn't tell him we're still together right now but I don't want to lie to the man I love and so I told him.

A friend told me that I was being "mellow dramatic" (Yes, he spelled it that way) but then who cares? For once for this year, let me babble to the world what I really feel.

To my first love,
I still love you. i'm sorry it didn't work out. I hope to still be with you someday. After college grad I guess. Just please take care

Yun lang, will stop being "mellow dramatic" now. I might sadden you too.

And before this post ends let me leave you a quote that left me LOL-ing.

If you can live forever, hindi ka ba mababagot?

got this from Banana Split's "trailer" for their Twilight spoof. I'm so excited!



GOD BLESS YOU, YOUR BLOG AND YOUR LOVED ONES (:
♥precious grace