I can't talk to my mom because I failed her, not to my sister, she's 13 and definitely not to my father. My friends aren't here and I'm not in the mood to talk to them too.
I feel so pathetic. once again, I failed everyone, especially myself. Stupid Bio! If I just had a higher grade I would've had my scholarship back. I already accepted the fact that I won't be marching on Honor's day because my grades weren't that outstanding last semester but I promised myself I'd get my scholarship back.
Only God knows what I did wrong.
Was that because of my partying during Saturday nights?
Is it because of my extra-curricular activities?
Was it because my classes starts too early?
What did I do wrong to deserve this?
I have to talk to my Biology teacher. I need to.
I desperately want to end my life right now, (which is more pathetic than not qualifying for scholarship). I felt like everything that I've worked hard for is gone.
Lord God help me.
16 comments:
Grace, my dear...why so perplexed with your predicament. More of those are coming your way! That's life (so they say), but hey, build a character that will enable you to stand the test of time. Be resilient. If you set the bar high, you did that because you know you'll be able to hurdle it. If not, then, lower the bar a bit..it might be too high for you to handle with. Otherwise, you're inviting frustrations and disappointments. If you know yourself in-and-out, then you worry less. I should know better because I was in your shoes before. I know exactly what you're going through right now. CHEERS!!!
Aww. I've experienced this one too nun HS pa'ko sa Pinas (well, minus the scholarship). It was soo frustrating. You feel you need someone but you just can't tell them about it, whoever they are or whatever relationship you have. You just can't talk even if you wanted to.
Well, for now, move on. God bless you.
Hope you'll do good in talking to your teacher. ;]
Well, a failure is really a part of our lives, I actually experienced the same too when I was in HS.. Rawrrbot's right, Move on.. :)
Precious! That's exactly what happened to me in my 2nd year.. my biology grade ruined my whole QPA, i was really disappointed but then i realized that we all go through our share of failures/disappointments and we have to learn to face them because there are more to come. :) this is just a challenge for you to do better next sem, you can overcome this. ^^
B..how come you never told me about this?.. You know how I'm always there for you diba?.. Anyways, just hang in there B, I'm sure God has a plan/purpose for all these things. We may not know it now but I'm certain things will turn out ok soon. Basta remember I'm just here B.. Love you..
Pre! I feel for you. I can't march this year too because of 4 Bio subjects (imagine that). I know how these things are so important right now, but time will come when you'll see that these petty things are not all that. But still, sakit pa rin. Cry your heart out in the shower, that's how i deal with things. Maybe it'll work for you...:)hehehe
nice blog, btw, queen of babble. haha. BIO diay? waaah. ga reminisce na pud ko. & yeah, i know how you feel. i've been in that situation before. (though i'm not vying to be in the honors list). you know what? i got a grade of 1.2 during the 1st semester of last year. pre-requisite pa jud to. like f*ck! hopeless na jud that time. well, good thing i passed sa finals, 2.4 ra pud. haha. but nah, that's way better than getting an F. what a sigh of relief! hehe. but it did pull down my grades. very disappointing, i know. :) cheer up. it's not the end of the world yet. (very cliche). haha. thank God last sem was the end of my bio career. lol. there's more to come. weee. XD
i hope you feel better :(
i know how it feels...
just pray and better things are coming your way dear :)
God bless..
I feel you grace. In all honesty, kinkabahan din ako baka mawalan din ako ng scholarship. Hmmm, pero fighting! You can have it back. I belive you. Atta! :)
We learn from our failures. Don't handle this on your own. Talk to someone.
Always remember that failures or problems just come and go.You just need to handle it well. Smile.
You're in HS, right? Well, it's not really a failure. I know you can make up for it. There are still two quarters, if I'm not mistaken. Good luck with the talk with your teacher!
agreed 101% of MRbrightside.....:) take it easy dear...it is not the end of the road...am sure you'll do better....good luck!
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I know you feel so down right now, but look at the bright side and see that you can still take it all back. You just have to work extra hard and set your priorities straight. You need to focus on what's important.
You know you can do it. We know you can do it!
This grandma wishes she could give you a big hug...and say sweetheart there is always tomorrow and I suspect your a fighter and will stay until you do better and say glad I tried harder and won..don't give up never change your goals, adjust the timing....I have seven grandchildren and each of them have had their trials, victories and yes some defeats which have made them stronger....
Hugs and blessings...
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